Lolytaz

Faces of 'D'

2011-08-27T17:49:00.003-05:00

This is my life...this is what I live...EVERYDAY is a battle but I will win...

The face of 'D' (Diabetes) is a hard one to see,

What do we look like? What do you see?

The battles we fight are on the inside,

Battles from which we can't run or hide.

We're all just the same, like everyone else,

Not that much different, I keep telling myself.

The looks from some people, the fear in their eyes,

It makes me feel alone, and I ask myself "Why?"

'D' is not visual; it's hard to explain,

But please don't ignore us, or treat us in vain.

For if we take care, and do everything right,

Our 'D' for the most part will stay out of site.

Complications are there, waiting to be,

We all do our best to stay complication free.

There are people out there, who are so quick to say,

"If you took care of your 'D' you'd be better today."

So we take care in silence, in this frustrating fight,

We are caught in the middle, doing everything right.

When I'm happy and healthy, they can't see my 'D',

If I fall in my battle, then they criticize me.

We need understanding, someone to be there,

Somebody to listen, somebody to care.

I may not look sick; I look normal that's true,

But the battles I fight, you haven't a clue.

Look at a person, look into their eyes,

Look past their face, look deep down inside.

The secrets and stories aren't easy to see,

Especially the ones who are battling 'D'.

Although it is hard to notice my 'D',

Its soldiers of battle rage inside of me.

The faces of many, hide secrets so deep,

My 'D' is a secret I've promised to keep.

Gary

2000

2010-08-03T11:40:00.003-05:00

In loving memory of
Ryan and Justin Dillard
2-4-02 to 8-2-09

Thighs aching. Lungs burning.
Chests pressed against the “Finish Line” tape.
Ears ringing as fans packed 1,000 deep
on each side of the course chant:
“Jus-tin! Ry-an! Jus-tin!
Ry-an! Jus-tin! Ry-an!”
A single tear falls down their face as the “finish line” tape snaps
against them pushing off their chest.
The noise of the crowd dies out.
Their legs no longer hurt. They breath normally.
They walk slowly forward.
And open their eyes!
They gaze around at a serene white landscape. All is quiet.
A loving gentleman in a flowing white gown runs gently to them.
They embrace. His hands leave small specs of blood on their back.
He says, “You were missed, welcome home”.
They say, “We weren’t gone that long,
and besides, we spoke every day”.
They walk towards the Throne hand in hand,
He is walking, they’re skipping.
Under the seraphim’s they go, listening to their eternal songs.
And on their face they fall as their entire soul sings out praises to God.
With a thunderous boom the voice of the Creator
calls them by name: “Justin, Ryan”.
They are saturated by the sound. They cannot answer.
They want to sing praises. They want to dance. They cannot move.
They feel His warm breath on the nap of their neck
and hope to spend eternity there.
He again speaks and His voice drowns out the praises of the seraphim’s:
“Justin, Ryan”.
They can’t speak, but He knows their soul is listening.
And He says, “You really knocked their socks off, kiddos”.
Justin & Ryan giggle, “Yes LORD, we did”.
“Good job”

Justin and Ryan...

2009-08-10T12:40:00.019-05:00

R.I.P. babies...We love you and miss you!Their grandma Virgie use to sing The Recipe Song to them...

Gonna make a recipe

I just can't wait to start,

It's not the kind you serve at meals,

you make it in your heart.

If you've never tried it

you've got to have a taste,

so come into the kitchen and we'll make a batch of praise.

First you take a cup of faith

and stir it all around;

add some joy and laughter

till it makes a bubbly sound.

Mix in some agape love

till it begins to ring

Pour into a willing heart and serve it to the King!

Jesus Loves Me this I know, for the bible tells me so... This was read by their aunt April to their mommy Jenny...

Wings & Halos

We were so excited when we woke up today

We heard our Mommy was coming to play

We washed our wings and our halo too

Cuz that's what Mommy likes us to do
We went to the place where we knew she'd be

It's where she comes to visit us you see

She comes for comfort in her despair
Oh Mommy, can't you feel us touching your hair?
We are by your side all through the night

We never let you out of our sight

We were your babies for only 7 years

But soon we can be together and play dear
You know we'll never be apart

You'll never let us leave your heart

Mommy we're not really in the ground,

lift up your head and look around
The clouds, the birds, the rain drops too

these gifts of life were given to you

Don't cry for us Mommy, We know you're here

Please let us wipe away that tear.
We were sent to you from up above

And you showed us the ultimate love

Remember your relatives, the ones who have died?

They brought us here, We're by their side

They watch over us and help us to see

just how much you really love us
So don't be unhappy when you come visit us

We're the angels above you, up in the tree

And when you leave, you'll never be through

You'll always be our Mommy

And we will always love you We took the kids to the lake to release some balloons...We had actually planned on going to the lake the day before but didn't get to so the balloons were already deflating, which made us all giggle. We gathered as Debbie said a beautiful prayer...We counted to 3 and the wind blew the balloons away into the water. They looked very pretty...

We didn't say "Goodbye", we simply said, "C-U Later"

It's time to Change...

2009-01-27T09:41:00.004-06:00

I read this and it seemed PERFECT for what I'm going through right now :) Actually, I think it's perfect for a lot of people...

It's Time to Change
by Trixie Asirvatham

Change is exciting, but the unknown can be frightening too. Familiar faces and things have a reassuring quality to them. Fear of the unknown can make even a good change (like a job promotion or a trip abroad) a potential source of stress. The thing to do is to recognise that change is a fact of life, and to learn to look at change positively and constructively. Change happens. It's how you respond that matters. As with all things, the choice is up to you.

I step into the future
Don't know what's in store
I'll be walking new pathways
Learning more,
Meeting new faces,Making new friends,
The time has come to move on,It's time to change.
It's hard to leave the things you know and understand
And set out on a journey on unfamiliar land
It's hard to leave old friends behind and walk away,
But the time has come to move on, it's time to change.
But my friends are a part of me,
A part of my personality,Always there to guide me
Wherever I happen to be
The past leaves its mark on me,And makes me the person I am
And the good things go with me
When it's time to change.
The seasons turn
And the years move on
Nothing ever stands still
Changing day by day...
Good wishes go with me
And speed me on towards the sun
The time has come to move on,It's time to change.
The seasons turn, and the years move on,Nothing ever stands still, changing day by day
Good wishes go with me
And speed me on towards the sun
The time has come to move on,It's time to change.
Change for the better?
Change for the worse?
Who can tell it better…It's for me to make it work
The sun is up and shining
And there's a rainbow in the sky
I'm going to find my pot of gold,
It's time to change.It's time to change, It's time to change,The time has come to move on,it's time to change.

A prayer...

2009-01-26T12:34:00.000-06:00

Dear Jesus, Divine Physician and Healer of the Sick, we turn to You in this time of illness.

O dearest Comforter of the troubled, alleviate our worry and sorrow with Your gentle love, and grant us the grace and strength to accept this burden.

Dear God, we place our sick under Your care and humbly ask that You restore Your servant Yolanda to health again. Above all, grant us the grace to acknowledge Your holy will and know that whatsoever You do, You do for the love of us.

Amen.

Me? 32? There must be some mistake...

2008-11-11T10:52:00.021-06:00

I love my "IT'S MY BIRTHDAY BITCH!" shirt!!! LOL Thank you Alice!

Roy and I celebrated our 32nd birthday this past weekend at Sherlocks. We had an awesome time! Thanks Jennifer and Slick for buying us the cake, to bad it ended up on someone's face..grrrrr! I got a little taste! YUM! :)The name of the Band performing was "Strippers Lie". This is the second time we have gone to see them and they haven't disappointed us yet :)They let me dance on the speaker while they performed since it was my Birthday! teehee
My baby and I boogied too!

32 and still HOT! ROCK ON!!! Thanks to everyone that made it out and partied with us, it is a night we will definetly remember :)

Dallas Cowboys!

2008-09-18T09:32:00.016-05:00

We had tickets to the Monday night Football game in Dallas. It was the first home game and we were very excited to go up until Ike made his presence. Our only concern was ofcourse our little boy. Once Monday came around we felt more comfortable about leaving him with Guelo and Gueli for just one night especially because they had a generator. From the looks of it he didn't mind staying either. He gave us hugs and kisses and quickly dismissed us! It actually kinda made me feel bad! :)

The drive to Dallas was quick and the first gas station we arrived to with gas and no line was in Centerville. The gas there was $3.99/gallon! BIAAAAAA! I guess we should be happy because apparently they had gone down from the day before which was $4.08/gallon. Crazies! We had no choice but to fill up! Once we arrived in Dallas , we checked in to a Hotel and waited on Erica and Joseph to arrive (party Buds). Went to Hooters and then headed out to the game...

Roy w/Hooters chick. He was like, "Ike who?"

Entering the Stadium!

Barber (24) and Owens (81) were in the houze! Erica and I @ Ok Corral!

Joseph was warming up for a picture but Roy was ready!!!!

It turned out to be an awesome game, 37 - 41, Cowboys won!!! And at the end, Roy had everyone singing to the Eagles Fans, "NAH - NAH - NAH-NAH, HEY- HEY-HEY GOODBYE!" LOL

Take a hike Ike!

2008-09-18T08:26:00.010-05:00

First of all and MOST importantly we are alive and well, thanks to God! Today will be day number 6 without power, thanks to Ike. But we are very fortunate and very blessed to have so many wonderful people in our lives. Material things are replaceable. Family and friends are not so I have much to be THANKFUL for! :)

My silly Boy!

Looks like a Hurricane Party!

To be a child again...no worries...:)

We roughed it up at my sis's house in the hallway!

My mommy and daddy's backyard.

Tree's fell all around my parents house but nothing on top!

God is good!

Dr. Randy Pausch

2008-07-25T10:41:00.000-05:00

I'm so sad...He passed away this morning...

He put life in perspective...

The Dash

2008-07-18T10:44:00.000-05:00

My bro sent me an e-mail this morning and attached was this link, http://www.dashpoemmovie.com/
And even though I have seen this poem many times before, It get's me everytime.

It's very inspirational.

Dash, A poem by Linda Ellis

I read of a man who stood to speak

At the funeral of a friend

He referred to the dates on her tombstone

From the beginning to the end
He noted that first came her date of her birth

And spoke the following date with tears,

But he said what mattered most of all

Was the dash between those years
For that dash represents all the time

That she spent alive on earth.

And now only those who loved her

Know what that little line is worth.
For it matters not how much we own;

The cars, the house, the cash,

What matters is how we live and love

And how we spend our dash.
So think about this long and hard.

Are there things you’d like to change?

For you never know how much time is left,

That can still be rearranged.
If we could just slow down enough

To consider what’s true and real

And always try to understand

The way other people feel.
And be less quick to anger,

And show appreciation more

And love the people in our lives

Like we’ve never loved before.
If we treat each other with respect,

And more often wear a smile

Remembering that this special dash

Might only last a little while.
So, when your eulogy is being read

With your life’s actions to rehash

Would you be proud of the things they say

About how you spent your dash?

My Crazy Guy

2008-07-16T10:34:00.000-05:00

Last night hubby and I were watching "The Family Guy". I started to fall asleep but I informed him that I was craving some attention. NOOOOOO PERVERTS, NOT LIKE THAT!!! I'm talking about innocent, kind affection like a hug or a sweet kissie. So as he lay next to me, he began to lovingly touch my face and stroke my hair. I closed my eyes and was about to fall asleep when I hear him say (in the silliest voice), "Would you like some ice cream from my ice cream truck? Tata-tataa-tataa-tataa..." I, ofcourse, started LMAO!!!!! He sounded just like the creepy old guy from "The Family Guy"!

Thanks hun, I was STILL laughing thinking about it this morning...:)
Love you!

4th of July

2008-07-10T08:12:00.000-05:00

We spent the 4th of July in Snyder, TX (home of the White Buffalo). We stayed with my in-laws (the most awesome people in town) and every morning we woke up to the aroma of my mother in-laws cooking. Let's see...we had flour tortillas, briskett, eggs, frijoles, papas, chile...she even added porkchops the last morning we were there!!! Sooooo YUMMY! I love being out in the coutry. It is so relaxing and beautiful. Ethan enjoyed seeing all his cousins there and playing in dirt all day long. We got to see Ms. Shelby in a parade and then later went to the park/carnival to see the fireworks. We ofcourse continued to pig out and enjoyed sausages on the stick, briskett nachos and a fajita burrito. Oh, and I almost forgot the late night burritos and chimichangas (Chimi-charrangas) from Allsups (Like a 7-11). They were the BOMB! Yes, I'm paying for it now but we had a great time. Can't wait to go back!

"The White Buffalo"

Mi Familia...

2008-07-08T08:09:00.000-05:00

deezy movie

Thanks for the video Pete and Roy!

WAKE UP!!!!

2008-06-27T10:31:00.000-05:00

This morning on the way to work, Tori and I were on the HOV lane talking about "clean sheets" (don't ask)...

(this is Tori and Me)
We were coming up to a split and I realized at the last minute that I needed to move over to the right lane, so I did!!!!

HUGE MISTAKE!!!!!! My lil car started spinning out of control and I ended up hitting the wall with the bumper of my car!!!!

It was only a matter of seconds but it was sooooooooo scary and Tori had a cup of coffee in her hand the whole time!!! I totally expected to see her soaking in java but to my surprise it only spilled a little on the door!

OMG! Once I turned the car around and got back on track, we didn't know how to react to what had just happened but the laughter just came!!! We were shaking but laughing so hard!!!! It was the coffee more than anything that had us giggling. I am so relieve that it wasn't as bad as it COULD have been. Thank God we are both ok. The car has major scratches on it but it's driveable and it is grey so I'm hoping it is not that noticeable! Hubby was glad to hear we were ok too but sooooooooooo upset!
Sorry, babe!

Tori sent me this comment on MS:

And this morning, Loly hit the wall.....LOL I'm ok!

Yeah, this is something we will never forget.......

Girls Night Out

2008-06-26T14:15:00.000-05:00

I recently had a girls night out and it turned out to be a very fun and relaxing night for me! Let's just say it was much needed! Me, Cynthia and Bertha drove up to Sherlocks (River Oaks) to meet up with some other girls Friday night. It was an awesome night with great music and ofcourse my fabulous comadre who turned 31 on 6/22/08! HAPPY BIRTHDAY CYNTHIA!:)

The band was good!

Me and my BFF Cynthia or should I say Cynful?

Our table!

I got a little "Girls night out cup" Too cute!

Bertha don't choke! Someone w/hot pink top put something in your drink! lol

The bands lead singer couldn't get enough of Cynthia!

Another band member! (Guitarist)

He worked there but not sure what his duties were besides taking pic w/beautiful girls! (Too many to post!) lol
Hey where did that come from?Wait!!!!! I think we were calling it a night here.

My HCSS Girls stop by to see me!!!

Sorry your actual birthday sucked Cynthia but the important thing is that you are ALIVE and WELL! Praying for a fast recovery for you that way we can go get your FMP's
Love ya! MUAH!

F*&%#@$ Fabulous!

2008-06-03T11:03:00.000-05:00

I went to see Sex and the City this past Friday with some friends and I LOVED it! It's has a great message and I will definetly be buying it once it's out. I think the hubby will enjoy it a lot too although he will never admit it! lol This one song stood out to me from the movie...so I wanted to share it with ya'll and wish you all love and forgiveness today...It's on my playlist so check it!
The Heart Of The Matter
Artist: India.Arie
(originally by Don Henley)

New kid on the block

2008-05-23T08:42:00.000-05:00

A week ago, this little guy came into our lives and into our hearts. He is only two months old and sooooooooo precious!!! My brother and sister in-law plan to adopt him and we hope he (officially) becomes apart of our family very very soon...Please pray for this situation. This little angel came into our lives for a reason, we just have to believe...

May-Date Night

2008-05-22T09:28:00.001-05:00

Hubby and I met up w/some of my ex-coworkers at Tokyohana's Friday evening (Happy Hour). It's always great seeing them. My nephew Pete showed up and joined the fun too and made new friends! California Rolls were Yummy but the service SUCKED! We may not be going there again...
See the guy behind us?? That's the sucky waiter! Byotch!
EAT IT PETE! EAT IT!!!! After Tokyohana's we walked to Drillers then to Swig and then back to Drillers. It was a fun filled night and I can't wait for "Date night" again!!!!!!
Or "Girls Night" teehee
I was missing you Grace!

DANCE BY@@@@S!

By the end of the night, it was all a blur...

To my Child

2008-05-13T15:21:00.001-05:00

Someone e-mailed this to me and everytime I read it, it reminds me how blessed I am...:)

Just for this morning, I am going to smile when I see your face and laugh when I feel like crying.
Just for this morning, I will let you choose what you want to wear, and smile and say how perfect it is.
Just for this morning, I am going to step over the laundry, and pick you up and take you to the park to play.
Just for this morning, I will leave the dishes in the sink, and let you teach me how to put that puzzle of yours together.
Just for this afternoon, I will unplug the telephone and keep the computer off, and sit with you in the backyard and blow bubbles.
Just for this afternoon, I will not yell once, not even a tiny grumble when you scream and whine for the ice cream truck, and I will buy you one if he comes by.
Just for this afternoon, I won't worry about what you are going to be when you grow up, or second guess every decision I have made where you are concerned.
Just for this afternoon, I will let you help me bake cookies, and I won't stand over you trying to fix them.
Just for this afternoon, I will take us to McDonald's and buy us both a Happy Meal so you can have both toys.
Just for this evening, I will hold you in my arms and tell you a story about how you were born and how much I love you.
Just for this evening, I will let you splash in the tub and not get angry.
Just for this evening, I will let you stay up late while we sit on the porch and count all the stars.
Just for this evening, I will snuggle beside you for hours, and miss my favorite TV shows.
Just for this evening when I run my finger through your hair as you pray, I will simply be grateful that God has given me the greatest gift ever given.

I will think about the mothers and fathers who are searching for their missing children, the mothers and fathers who are visiting their children's graves instead of their bedrooms, and mothers and fathers who are in hospital rooms watching their children suffer senselessly, and screaming inside that they can't handle it anymore.
And when I kiss you good night I will hold you a little tighter, a little longer. It is then, that I will thank God for you, and ask him for nothing, except one more day.............

Galveston in March

2008-04-22T11:03:00.001-05:00

G-town!

Ethan was checking out some chic walking by!
The Boys!

My Boys! Tavarez Familia! My silly boy needs shades! Erica and Muah!! Los Tavarez's Roy all touching my booty in public! OKAY!!! I likeded it! LOL

Tori, Tori, Tori

2008-04-17T14:39:00.000-05:00

Tori!!!!

You bouncy little red head...I forgive you for calling my blog a "blah"!

Oh and I didn't know you WATCHED me work out at the gym...Alrighty then....

I even got you a shirt, I hope you like...

One last thing...quit acting like "Red" when you are going to the gym by yourself...

Tavo's Wedding

2008-04-17T09:28:00.001-05:00

We went to Piedras Negras this past weekend for my cousin Tavo's wedding.

Our trip began on Friday and once we crossed the border we met up with the groom (Tavo) and he took us to a Hotel his friend works at. Although the room was kinda creepy (like the movie "Vacancy") we ended up getting a great deal! Afterward we chilled at my Tia Chelos house. We chowed down on some bean tamales followed by some ice cold TECATES! Oh Yeah! They went down nicely. And YES...we each had our own bottle!!! lol Check out the size of those things!!!Ofcourse mom kept praying for me as she watched me drink saying, "Ay Dios mio" or "Diosito Santo!" She even started calling me by my middle name saying, "No tomes mucho DOLORES!" That night we hung out with the groom in the room and continued drinking our Tecates. After that was out we sipped on some Vodka and Fresca Toronja or Tequila Hornitos Plata and Fresca Toronja. Those drink were the bomb! Bro claims he don't remember anything past 12:00! lolEthan ended up falling asleep which meant the party was over for me. The other freaks went out into the night walking down the main street. I heard the next morning that they had walked too far from the Hotel so their Mexican asses had to all fit into a taxi to get back!!!! 4 Big guys and 1 girl! I would of loved to have seen that! Saturday we woke up looking for breakfast and we stopped by the Plaza on the way. Ethan enjoyed it! We went to the Mercado to eat breakfast and afterwards we went looking around for bargains! My goal was to find a "frauda" (prada) or a "cooch" (coach) purse but I had no luck...So we went back to the Hotel (ta na na na naaaa) and took a nap. Woke our broke ass up and went back to Tia Chelos house for more tamales. This time we had cheese, chicken and beans! Soooo yummy! Oh and more Tecate's! jiji My sister had just made it in from Houston so we took her back to the hotel (ta na na na naaaa) to get settled in. Got ready and went to my cousin Tavo's wedding. Before the ceremony actually began there was some sort of parade going on...It was obviouse they were praising the Virgin Mary but I don't know the details of the event. Anyway, it was awesome to watch! Here is a short video...

The wedding ceremony was of couse BEAUTIFUL! The reception/dance was at a park (out doors). It was fancy yet a little wild at the same time!!! lol It really was unlike any other wedding I had been to. I think the "fancy" part of it was her and the "wild" part was all him!

This is a horrible picture of me but I wanted to show what I meant by "wild". Look at the people behind us...I'm not sure when but at one point in the trip my son went streaaaaaaking down the hotel hallway!!!Sunday morning came and we were back on the road heading to H-Town!!! Amazing how time flies!

We had a great time but it wasn't the same without her (my aunt)...

Becerra Wedding!

2008-04-07T11:34:00.001-05:00

The Becerra wedding was beautiful and we were so happy to be a part of something so special! The reception/dance was fun and Oh so memorable. That's what you get when you mix Beer, Grey Goose, Crown Royal, Seagram and GREAT friends. The bride hooked us up with some Cranberry juice. We had to hide it under the table but HEY...that's how we roll...

Party of fun!

Congratulations Mr. and Mrs. Becerra, we wish you the best of luck!!!

Dad's B-day!

2008-04-01T16:18:00.000-05:00

My Daddy turned 64 years YOUNG in March. Here are a few pictures of that day...
Birthday boy with Sombrero!!!

He claimed the sombrero was to small for his BIG head!!!

Check out brother in the background... Always in the mix!

Uncle Pete and Paty are a lot alike...

Much love in this place...

Guelo with grandkiddos...

Party IS over...heehee

Letter to Me

2008-04-01T15:21:00.001-05:00

I totally copied this from somewhere but I really liked it.

If you could write a letter to your high school self, what would it say?
I just heard that Brad Paisley song about the letter to himself in high school. Anyway, here is a letter to me...

Dear Maria,
Before I start, just know, it all works out well - just not at all the way you planned. But, that's okay. You'll learn that things happen for a reason, you just have to believe. Also, you did a good job. Don't change too many things because each step you took lead you to the life you have, now. The mistakes you made were minor - nothing life altering. For that, you will always be grateful.

#1 - Lay off the guys. Really, this boy crazy issue you have is very annoying. In the end, not one of the guys you like will pan out to anything worth all your attention. So, chill out and enjoy other aspects of your teenage years.

#2 - Since diabetes runs in the family, work out, stay fit and eat healthy, that way you don't have any problems.

#3 - Hang out with Tia Loly as much as you can. You'll miss her.

#4 - Even if you don't keep in contact with most of the friends you made, know that their influences will have shaped your life forever. Your TRUE friends will be around for a long while.

#5 - Your parents really are clueless - but they mean well. A few less eye rolls would probably be appreciated.

#6 - Be more patient with Peter and Ana. They are older and got it rough and your annoyance doesn't help anything.

#7 - Take harder classes in high school. You did okay but if you had extended yourself a bit and learned how to study, I bet those good study habits would have helped you.

#8 - Jose is dating somebody at the same time he's dating you. Don't cry about it - just deal with it and move on.

#9 - Girbeaud and Z. Cavaricci jeans - UGLY.

#10 - For the Graduation party, get someone to watch the gate - Ophelia is not paying attention, she even waved at the cops while she let them in.

#11 - That swing in the backyard...Use it to get away for a while, swing away.

There's a lot more. But, you really did do okay. You got through in a fairly non-traumatic way and your life is pretty cool right now. So, sit back and enjoy.

ps - Don't EVER say that 31 is old because your pushing 32 now and feeling pretty good.

Non-Stop

2008-03-24T16:39:00.000-05:00

Started celebrating last Wednesday...I met up with some ex co-workers at Guadalajaras for Happy Hour. We got together to say farewell to an ex boss who will be leaving the city to begin a new journey. Good Luck D!

We will always have "Pretty Woman" lol

The next day (Thursday)the celebration continued because it was my sis in-laws b-day!!! Happy Birthday Debbie!!!

Since we partied Thursday night, this was me at work Friday...

and after work I slept until the next day...

Saturday we decided to take Ethan to the Rodeo Carnival. It was a beautiful day and my boy had a great time...The petting zoo was kinda scary for him but he tried a few times to get over his fear...The little goats weren't so bad.

Later that night "O" invited us to a comedy show to see Joey "Coco" Diaz and Phillipe or Felipe Esparza and I swear...My hubby and I hadn't laughed that much and that hard in a long time...We so needed that! Thanks Philly!

After the Comedy show we went to "B's" to listen and dance to Tejano Music! David Lee Garza was performing...Hubby and I danced ALL night long!

We spent Easter Sunday at my sis in-law Doras House. She had an Easter Egg hunt for the kids and it was soooo much fun to watch them. Did I mention we pigged out too?!!! Afterwards we went to my mom and dads just to pig out some more...

Needless to say I had a non-stop "GREAT" and memorable time with "Awesome" Friends and Family!!!! And THANKS BRO and NINA for watching my son Saturday night and for helping him make Easter eggs for his "non-stop partying mama and dada!!!!!" hahaheeheehoho

The Boy

2008-03-20T08:37:00.000-05:00

The other day Roy and I were in our bedroom while Ethan was running around playing. Suddenly Ethan walked in and said,"The boy scare me momma." Roy and I looked at each other like, "WTH?!" and I asked, "What boy?" He said, "The boy in Lily's room". He calls the front room "Lily's room" since she use to stay there. Curious, I said, "Show momma where." And when we walked toward the room I asked, "Where is he?" and he pointed in the room and said, "Right there!" I told him that I didn't see anything and he said, "The boy sleeping in Lily's room." I asked him what the boys name is but he just shrugged his little shoulders and said, "I don't know." Ofcourse, it freaked me out and my heart was racing! I mean can he actually be seeing something that I can't? I finally told him to tell the little boy to go away when he sees him.

A couple of nights ago, I had a nightmare and this is how I remember it...
Roy was in the bedroom and I was putting Ethan to bed. Ethan then says to me that he has to "go potty" so I walked to the guest bathroom but for some reason I walked in without turning on the lights. I looked in the mirror and I see an image of a little boy...It was a dark image...I could see his figure and he had a white shirt and dark blue shorts on...but I couldn't see his face!! I was so terrified that I screamed and yelled for Roy and as I tried to get away I somehow tripped and fell in the hallway!! When I looked toward our bedroom searching for Roy, the door was closed!! I could hear Roy on the other side of the door cussing, trying to open it to get to me but he couldn't. Ethan was still in his room. Realizing that I had to do something, I became brave...Still on the floor I crawled back to the bathroom to look in and there he was...he wasn't in the mirror anymore, he was closer to the doorway. Again, I couldn't see his face but I could tell he was around my niece Paty's age which is 7. Even though he was little I was so scared that I couldn't get any words out!!! With my heart beating fast and my voice trembling I finally said, "Get out...you don't belong here...leave this house now..."

WTF RIGHT???
Things that make you go HMMMMMM?!!

Yellow Butterfly at it again...

2008-03-14T14:21:00.000-05:00

A "yellow" butterfly landed on hubby's shoulder today...When he called to tell me I couldn't help but tear up and smile...

I e-mailed my bro and told him about the "yellow" butterflies that we have been witnessing and this is what he said...
"When we got back from Piedras (Loly's funeral)…. A couple of days later I was walking at the park…I was thinking a lot about Loly.…between the first quarter mile and ½ way mark of the park…a yellow butterfly flew next to me as I walked. I looked at it and smiled and said "Hey Loly!"….it stayed with me for a while until it left.
I guess it was her way of telling me/us bye.

Been 6 months…and I don't think I have seen a butterfly since then…miss her? Yup."

Breath

2008-03-13T14:31:00.000-05:00

I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE the song "Breath" by Breaking Benjamin but WTH does it mean?? I have my own version of what it means but I don't know if I'm right. I have tried looking it up on line but everyone else has a different opinion on what it means. The video is just of them "live" in concert. Anyway, he has so much passion in his voice which makes it my favorite song at the moment...It's on my playlist if you want to hear it, just click on it! Here are the Lyrics...

Breath

I see nothing in your eyes, and the more I see the less I like.

Is it over yet, in my head?

I know nothing of your kind, and I won't reveal your evil mind.

Is it over yet? I can't win.

So sacrifice yourself, and let me have what's left.
I know that I can find the fire in your eyes.
I'm going all the way, get away, please.

[Chorus:]
You take the breath right out of me.
You left a hole where my heart should be.
You got to fight just to make it through,
'cause I will be the death of you.

This will be all over soon.
Pour salt into the open wound.

Is it over yet? Let me in.

So sacrifice yourself, and let me have what's left.
I know that I can find the fire in your eyes.
I'm going all the way, get away, please.

[Chorus:]
You take the breath right out of me.
You left a hole where my heart should be.
You got to fight just to make it through,
'cause I will be the death of you.

[Bridge]
I'm waiting, I'm praying, realize, start hating.

[Chorus:]
You take the breath right out of me.
You left a hole where my heart should be.
You got to fight just to make it through,
'cause I will be the death of you

My version of this song...
She hurt him, which now makes him question who she really is.
He loves her but hates her at the same time.
He wants to be with her but he is warning her that she is going to have to "fight" to make it work and he is not going to make it easy for her...

My Butterfly!

2008-03-12T08:48:00.000-05:00

Today would of been my beautiful aunts birthday. She would have turned 56. Ironically, it is also exactly 6 months since she past away...

We were both named Loly and even though I was bigger, people would call her Big Loly (Grande) only because she was older. I of course was the little Loly (chiquita)...
The day she past away, I remember seeing a beautiful yellow butterfly flying by me. It caught my attention and I of course thought of it as if it were her being around me...well, when I got home today, to my surprise a Yellow Butterfly surrounded us as we made our way into the house!!! I picked up my son and we stood there as this butterfly just kept flying by us. It would get so close as if it wanted to land on my son and it did this several times! He would even flinch every time it got near!!! We were so tickled by this and it warmed my heart to think that "maybe" it was her trying to make us smile on her birthday! Or just a BEAUTIFUL Coincidence!!! Either way, it was nice...

I miss you "Loly"! Thank you for being so AMAZING, LOVING, CARING and so much more during your time here with us...even on your last days, you never stopped showing your beauty...

Car-pool

2008-03-06T11:02:00.000-06:00

Everyday, I get the pleasure of traveling to and from work (car pool) with a group of interesting, unique people. There are four of us (sometimes five), one guy and the rest women. Every morning and evening is an adventure…We never know what we are going to witness…
Will we see the news crew from channel 13 again? You can just picture us sticking our heads out the window, waving trying to be a part of it!!!
Sometimes we see the crack head girl that O thinks would be so pretty if she only curled her hair and wore make-up ~ Of course R says, “Yes, she can be in the Crack Head beauty pageant”.
And there is this bum that O and I always look for in the mornings under the bridge. He sometimes just lays there and we wonder if he is asleep or dead and the times we don’t see him, we begin to worry...wondering where he may be!
We rarely have any drama…I’ve always said that I don’t need to have road rage because they all have enough for me…and when one of us has a tough day, we all enjoy a nice cold beer after work.
We are very open and talk about anything and everything! Even though there is a guy around, nothing is going to stop us women from being WOMEN! If you are a dude, you may envy him, he is after all surrounded by beautiful women (inside and out) BUT on the other hand “Code Red” is apart of our lives and he has to deal with that as well…What guy on earth wouldn’t want to learn what women want? Then again he is learning that what we “want” changes on daily bases.
I’m still trying to think of a name for our little group but so far “Crack Head Car-Peeps” is the only thing that comes to mind...

Introducing the crew…

Miss you N!!!

Welcome V!

Two helicopters in the middle of the street...interesting...

Roc Bar

2008-02-28T16:00:00.000-06:00

Hanging out with Family at the RocBar :)We had a great time and I couldn't of asked for a better group of people to be around me that night! The laughter just kept on coming...LOVE IT!!!

Are we having fun yet?? SMILE!!

Silly boyz!

Pete NOOOOOOOO!

Fun!

We are going where after this?

U see Tia Loly?!

Too Cute!

BJ always in the mix!

Slap him again please!

Yes, I have legs!!!